Sunflower poetry: Poems [page six]
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It’s a “Dare”
Truth or Dare Dare or Truth Tell the Truth Do the Dare It’s the Truth It’s a Dare Get her number Kiss the guy Drink the alcohol Dance with pole Dive in quarry Graffiti the store Truth or Dare Dare or Truth Tell the Truth Do the Dare It’s the Truth It’s a Dare Slash the tires Break a window Go skinny dipping Pierce your ear Get a tattoo Karaoke off key Truth or Dare Dare or Truth Tell the Truth Do the Dare It’s the Truth It’s a Dare Prank phone call Jump a fence Tip the cow Chinese fire drill Bob for apples Ding dong ditch Truth or Dare Dare or Truth Tell the Truth Do the Dare It’s the Truth It’s a Dare |
Anxiety Is
Anxiety is a prison to which I often misplace the key Behind these bars is not where I intended to be Anxiety is a blindfold that robs me of my sight Darkness surrounds me as shadows shut out the light Anxiety is a lack of balance between reason and emotion Fear is overwhelming like I’m drowning in an ocean Anxiety is a car speeding down a road without brakes Holding on for dear life when facing such high stakes Anxiety is being so caffeinated that you can’t sit still Just like an addict feeding their addiction always will Anxiety is not knowing what it means to not worry Lacking comprehension that you don’t’ need armor so burry Anxiety is a constant state of being afraid Not knowing what’s gonna happen to you isn’t ok Anxiety is like being put in a permanent straitjacket It’s possible if someone or something seems threatening I’ll attack it Anxiety is a nervousness in situations outside your comfort zone Risks seem unnecessary when it’s easier and safer at home Anxiety is when your emotions control your every move The idea that we can control our anxiety isn’t so easy to prove Anxiety is sadly experienced by thousands of men and women Very few people are immune to it because we’re all human Anxiety is a real issue that needs to be taken seriously eXacting a demand to suck it up may cause panic catastrophically Anxiety is what I experience every minute of every day Zigzagging through this maze of anxious or not and it’ll always be this way Oh Vampire
I look into your eyes Oh, vampire of the night Your bloodlust can’t be disguised Skin by the sun fries In this town everyone dies You play mind tricks and lies Victims releasing cries Know your species is despised Time to hide it’s sunrise But you’ll return tonight Streets are filled with fright A soul in you has no light I’m next I guess this is goodnight Darkness
Empty black void where silenced shrieks echo Cold damp bleak where betrayed hearts shatter Blood gore horror where suicidal teens cut Crushed choked chosen where panicked anxiety attacks Ink paper pen where thoughtful darkness thrives |
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Climbing
You reach the top of the stairs But where do you go from there And when you turn back Can you see all the blood you spilled? A needle prick to the finger A knife to the heart A wound to the soul And the people you stomped over And the bruises you left And the hearts that you broke And the souls you destroyed |
Dark, Damp, & Deadly
Dark are the souls inside cages of depression Damp are the cheeks drowning in rivers of emotion Deadly are the thoughts inside crevices of self-doubt Dark are the drawings interpreting nightmares Damp are the letters interpreting despair Deadly are the mirrors interpreting self-loathing Dark are the rooms inside hearts forever broken Damp are the shudders inside rattle bones Deadly are the whispers inside eardrums echoing failure |
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Not What She Expected
She wears long-sleeves to cover up the scars of self-hate She coats her face with makeup to cover up a black eye She wraps a scarf around her neck to hide the handprints She chopped off all her hair to disguise the bald spot He calls her stupid, worthless and constantly disrespects her He wants her to shut up, so he wraps his hands around her throat He can’t stand her presence, so he smacks her around He wishes she’d disappear so he pulls her hair throwing her to the ground She thought she married the man of her dreams But he has become the monster of her nightmares She thought he loved her more than anything in this world But he loves everything in this world more than her He doesn’t love her anymore; she doesn’t think he ever did She doesn’t mean anything to him, she knows she never did He hates her for all this time he feels has been wasted She hates herself for not being what he wants He blames her for ruining his life, and demeans her daily She hurts everywhere physically, emotionally, and mentally He takes pleasure in hurting the one he promised to love and cherish She’s ready to give up, she just wants out, she just wants it to end |
Raw
There are times when a feeling consumes you to the point of disrepair When you can’t see because your eyes are swimming in salt and water You’re barely holding it inside as your shoulders sag with a surrender Seconds feel like ages each heartbeat signals a parade of quakes Hard work seems meaningless in the face of inexperience Vulnerable embodiment leads to unexpected rejection Saying why try because it’s impossible to comprehend Collapsing of lungs incapable of breath through despair Negativity sucks out any hope of possible success Shivering against the chills of icy desperation No room for planting dreams of future achievements Drowning in inescapable fear filled thoughts and emotions Nowhere is safe from the enemy’s oppositional attacks Escape is futile doesn’t matter how far you try to run Discovery is imminent no hiding place will provide enough cover Doubt sticks to every cell and every piece of your dna Foreboding emptiness controls every fiber of our being Without lubrication we are frozen with fear and anxiety Directionless we have no place to go no one to find It’s time to just give up the oars and drift into oblivion |
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Temptation
Tempted with greed Tempted with lust Tempted with pride Prevented with gratitude Prevented with love Prevented with humility Tempted with doubt Tempted with anger Tempted with self-loathing Prevented with faith Prevented with forgiveness Prevented with self-respect |
The Hauntings
Pitter patter of little feet Ghostly little girls giggling Scratching inside hollow walls Piercing screams in hallways deafen Grating on the nerves of the weak Slashing sounds of knives and blood Haunted houses creak in the dark Creepy candles flicker in fogged windows Eerie echoes of lost souls trapped Hollow hearts stabbed in anger Curdled clots of blood stiffening Endless eyes peering out of the veil |
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Don’t Forget God
Make a choice to leave this world behind. Make a choice to give up everything of this world. Decide not to let others pressure you to denounce your faith Decide not to let yourself second guess your beliefs Trust the Word of God will happen as it says it will Trust the plans of God will come to fruition Forgive those who make themselves your enemy Forgive those who cause friction at every opportunity It’s time to take a stand as a Christian It’s time to take a stance as a Believer Let’s remind this generation of His selfless sacrifice Let’s remind this nation of His unconditional love Remember we serve an all-knowing God Remember we follow an all-seeing God We are fearfully, wonderfully made by the Alpha We are lovingly, forgiven always by the Omega Killing Trust
Blood trickles from the wound At the same time both shallow and deep I used a blade when I opened my mouth Making way, clearing a path, opening up Blood ran out, revealing my secrets to you Had I known you were a vampire That you would scent such blood That you’d need to ingest it That you would devour my offering to quench your thirst That it would catch your senses and draw you in I never would have shared it Took, take, taking, taking selfish Because now the feeling of your teeth, your fangs They dig in to the pulsing veins beneath an ivory column Searing with pain as I remember you shredding the skin As easily as paper it shredded You ripped through the layers down to sinew and bone. Fileted my column, each swallow tasting like iron Again and again you ripped your way in You want to pull out more than I can give You pick at the wounds that are still raw The scabs are not quite healed from prior feedings Wounds not yet healed left by those who fed before you When you look upon my body do you not see the scars They reside deep in the ivory column Stretching down the marble appendages Marring the slab of granite never fully flat I am a tomb, a tomb, the tomb, entombed. Could you not see the jagged edges of the marble canvas See where others pierced the ivory Piercing over and over and over again It’s scary to me how many vampires I have befriended over the years They looked nothing like Dark creatures of the night Their aura was enticing and their allure sucked me in Only to take something that was not theirs to take Take, taking, took what I did not want to give This isn’t a transfusion not unless you are hooked up too I thought at the time I was sharing a piece of me A piece you would not later throw back in face Like the sun’s blinding rays You should run from the sun But you stayed as I was fileted I know you are hoping for even just a drop of crimson That way you can once again paint your teeth red I now see how blind I was I now see the deceptive allure of possibilities What I see now is they caused me to be blind Blind, blind, blinding, blinded. To be blind to the deceit To be blind to the dangers of those white pearly shards For all you know how to do is shred the skin. You want to get to the “good stuff” deeper in Steal the blood that had you been patient I would have willingly trickled out over time just for you But now I find my body is weak My heartbeat slows The loss of blood makes me mute I cannot move my lips I cough up scarlett rivers All I can taste is iron thick and suffocating And I cannot find a reason To not just let go It should not hurt this much to open up But my trust has been shattered To no one do I matter My hope has dissipated And the blood that once trickled That then gushed from the cracks in the ivory Has left me empty, brittle and without a feeling at all Numb, numbing, numbed Numbness numbness numbness Has taken over my body Is numbness a feeling or simply At its most basic form merely the opposite Is numbness the antithesis of feeling cause If you feel numb if you feel nothing Then numbness is not a feeling…it is nothing Am I also nothing? I feel it…the numbness… Every minute of every day When I think about the number of feedings By the vampires of the past Their fangs imbedded into the pale column Once bared willingly but now unwillingly bared They sank into flesh Flesh, flesh, flesh. Of the throat Of the arms Of the thighs Of the hands Pearly daggers shredded my abdomen Pearly sabers tore out my muscles Pearly knives shattered my bones Crunch, crunch, crunching, crunched. I am a pile of crimson the scent calling out Anyone in a thousand miles, heed my call End me, take it, it’s not really mine anymore right? I can see my heart as you bite into it Red, red, red The juice bursting from your mouth like a ripe fruit The poison they put in while making me believe It was something that I wanted Now toxic in my veins, it’s fire, it’s flames It burns then it’s nothing, it’s numb I am nothing, I am numb I did not know that opening up Would lead to the death of my trust Had I known, had I possessed the knowledge I never would have bled for you I never would have bled for them The wounds may be healed They may almost be sealed But as long as there is you and them I will never be truly blemish free again For eternity the scars will remain I will never never never be the same I Dare You
I dare you to say I love you I dare you to say hello I dare you to say I hate you I dare you to say goodbye |
My Angel
I’ve always believed in demons cause the dark is what knew I never believed in Angels at least not until I met you The one whose mere presence completely changed my world Awakening these feelings that throughout my being swirled I rub my eyes in wonder at this being I behold My eyes roaming over his eyes and wings of gold Every single feather designed perfect and unique Outlining a body with a gorgeous godlike physique This body is home to a beautiful golden heart One that you cannot corrupt or tear apart Dear Angel I sit here and I admire you from a afar In awe of your likeness to a shiny golden star Then one day you came closer to me Why I don’t know but closer I wanted you to be To hold your hand in mine and to feel your touch I soon began to realize I’d fallen for you so much We’ve had ups and downs we’ve laughed and cried But above it all together we have thrived You are my Angel until I breathe my last For you Angel love me despite my darkened past How could you my Angel lovely Somehow fall for someone like me Without a moment's hesitation With unwavering affection You decided to throw out the rule book My hand in your hand you gladly took You are the sweetest person I know And with this poem I wrote I hope to show That I would gladly give my life for you Because my love is pure and true There is no where else I would rather be Then right where I am with you next to me I’m not perfect I still make mistakes for sure But oh Angel you still call me yours So in this moment at this time I tell you Angel you are mine Mine to have and mine to hold From today until we’re old I have never felt worthy Of the love you show me The day I discovered I had wings I understood so many things That you’re my soulmate through and through That I would do absolutely anything for you My love is as deep as it is wide My love for you I refuse to hide It makes me stronger and makes me proud I will go to the mountains and yell it aloud That I’ve fallen in love with a boy who loves me back A beautiful gorgeous Angel whose name is Jack. Metaphorical Contradiction
Tears fall in a current turning dirt into mud Rain falls in torrents drowning laughing flowers Wind stirs up desert crystals nicking glass mirages Air swirls leaves forming tempests of autumn Fire crackles releasing smoke that coats lungs like tar Flames consume weaknesses in all things living and dead Grass sharpened by heat rewards children with slivers Wood chipped by spinning blades injecting splinters into hands Blood trickles down a skinned knee like magnetized rivers Sweat provides seasoning on foreheads scattered like skipping rocks Lies drip from tongues that pierce souls like daggers Deception saturates the mouth poisoning every utterance Fear crushes chests forbidding the expansion of lungs Doubt drowns a brain submerged in uncertainty Truth is sucked into holes in the throat barring their revelation Dreams evaporate from file cabinets for which nightmares stole the keys Ash blackens feet trespassing in empty positivity Ink spills upon an author’s work demanding that he start over Like Midsummer Skies
When I look at you I see everything I’ve ever wanted You eyes are like rivers of affection by which I was once daunted How could someone as beautiful and kind hearted as you Ever look at me and say you’re mine, that you want me too Your baby blue eyes Like midsummer day skies Golden curly waves Soft smiles for days I promise to you that I’ll always be yours Never ever did I desire something like this before Yet now that it’s mine I hold tight with both hands To the future you are offering with no rules or demands With your baby blue eyes Like midsummer skies Golden curly waves Soft smiles for days I was beaten I was broken You were the healer You were the mender The softness of your smiles The warmth of your embrace The tender touches The loving kisses In the darkness you were the only light A reason to live and a reason to fight I was at the end of my rope and ready to hang I was at the ledge ready to fall and then you sang Through the blood and the tears Through the panic and the fears I was never alone You are my home Because of you I’m alive Because of you I continue to thrive You are my family and you are my mate You carry our child I’m blessed by fate Your baby blue eyes Like midsummer day skies Golden curly waves Soft smiles for days I will love you for the rest of my life Through the good, the bad, the joy, the strife I will be by your side whatever may be You are my everything, my sweet honey bee |
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Secrets & Lies
Secrets slither in the darkness sneaky and deadly What secrets are housed in hearts blackened with hate? Secrets of fire burn bridges and cut ties Secrets are words hidden covered up by telling lies Surrounded by shadows from where none shall return Don’t be so distracted by the beauty of a rose that you are pricked by its thorn The weight of things kept hidden is like quicksand around your waist Toxic sludge black coats the mouths from whence secrets emerge When the tongue drips honey it’s so sickly sweet It disguises the stingers embedded in it Behind the mask of insincerity lurks a demonic secret Secrets break the body and burn the soul They strain the muscles and crack the bones Tainted by what’s withheld inside a shadowed soul When a liar speaks black smoke clouds the atmosphere for they cannot be trusted By the time you hear its rattle it’s too late to escape the snake Barriers that define the boundaries of the shadows and the light sport handprints of blood Where many a soul has tried to pass between the two before meeting an awful fate Everywhere you look, in everyone you see, you will always find a secret that they keep The reasons behind secret keeping are vast and infinite Many keep them to prevent judgment, while others do so to prevent incrimination Secrets are also ammunition to wound others while preventing the discovery of your own mistakes You can spot a liar by looking where they’ve come from as the footprints will be ashy and muddy Though a melody may emerge from their lips it is a trap and pretty soon you’ll find yourself sharp or flat Be careful where you place your foot for some stones are not as solid as they seem Guard yourself against things that seem too good to be true because they probably are Secrets and lies go hand-in-hand one cannot be without the other Secret identities, villains, superheroes, special agents they all have one thing in common Though the reason for the secret of those differs in each scenario Please don’t gaze upon her beauty and get so lost that you miss the knife she holds behind her back You look at a little girl who looks like an angel But the shadow she casts is nothing close to one You look at a man with piercings and tattoos, you assume he’s evil But his shadow is that of a praying man What you see is not always what it is and what it is, is not always what you see Deception is all around and casts shadows causing doubt Liars lie because they’ve been lied to and it’s the only thing they know Secrets don’t keep us close but rather divide us making us turn on one another Secrets and lies are like salt and pepper or two peas in a pod The pain that remains left from secrets and lies is not easily forgotten A scar will always taint the skin, the heart, the soul of the victim Mysteries glimmer in the moonlight beckoning to wandering souls If you tell me your secret I will tell you mine An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth Secrets can make us powerful for a time but ultimately they become a weakness The same can be said for lies, the truth may hurt but is not as lasting as a lie Maybe you’ll escape before your air runs out Maybe just maybe you’ll escape the maze before time stops Perhaps for today death will pass over you, it’s glance upon another But sooner or later it will come to a head Ghosts linger as their business is unfinished and they shimmer with foggy deception Be careful of things that are beautiful for they hide the most ugly and dangerous of things Each promise laced with poison making one susceptible to suggestion Pretty liars are the most deadly for you see them not coming till it’s too late They get close and personal knowing you better than you know yourself You open up and become vulnerable and that’s your biggest mistake Trust is the biggest most powerful weapon of secrets and lies Lies are like slivers that stick in your finger and fester Secrets are like splinters that dig into your skin and putrefy Lies are like lasers that cut and burn what they touch When secrets and lies invade your mind you can’t tell what’s real and what’s not At their invasion you are unable to understand what’s true and what isn’t It’s like your brain is clouded, your mind is covered in a mist You can’t think clearly enough to find a way out and there’s a ringing in your ears You have been disoriented by what you did not see coming The warning of which you did not heed It’s numbing not being in control Those explosions surround you, you don’t hear a thing Suddenly you’re underwater and everything is silent Can you hold your breath long enough to survive Because Mrs. Secret wants you to die and Mr. Lie wants you to give up and breathe the water in Darkness has befriended you, shadows form wings behind you Smoke creates feathers blackened by evil You can run but you can’t hide, you’ll never escape secrets and lies They’ll hunt you when you’re dreaming with torturous nightmares But don’t expect to be saved during the day because they will hunt you there as well You won’t have peace of mind there will be no quiet for your soul Not as long as the poison runs through your bloodstream What secrets aren’t you telling what lies have you let slip They will be your undoing they have already begun to wear you down How long before your skin has gone and you’re left with muscle and bone Then when the muscle atrophies and you’re left as brittle bone what will you do Secrets and lies are how we disguise things that we don’t want others to know or to see But sooner or later our true colors show I guarantee you are not purely white There will be patches of black Secrets are grenades that when shared, blow up friendships and relationships Lies alter perceptions others have of us and how they interact with us in the future Walking on a tightrope over a pool of piranhas walking the line between wrong and right Some things are better left unsaid for words cut deeper than a knife But the wisdom to know what secrets to share and what lies not to tell is not common anymore Instead of standing in the light we love to bask in the deliciousness of the dark What we do in the dark cannot be judged and cannot be seen by our peers We are no longer bugs underneath a microscope but are free to follow pleasure and desire Tripping up on secrets and over our lies is like bare feet getting blisters as you run through a desert We are like sheep who will so willingly drink the Kool-Aid whoever the source may be We are quick to believe lies because we don’t want to face the truth Do not gaze into the shadows if you don’t possess the wisdom to discern their meaning Deception is waiting behind every rock and around every corner Promise me you won’t tell a soul the secret I’ve just told you Swear to me that you will never lie to me and will always tell the truth I cannot believe a word you utter for they drip with smoke and darkness and deceiving hope Like a broken butterfly wing that will tear with the slightest touch or breeze Relationships where secrets and lies have dwelt or dwell are just hanging by a thread Eventually the secrets become too much, as do the lies They will be the straw that broke the camel's back Backs are lined with bruises like a patchwork quilt Patterns made from the various weights they’ve born Ones that never fade because the weight is too much Others that have rented a space for their recurring presence A venomous spider that sets a trap, a web to catch its prey You reach the top of the stairs but where do you go from there And when you turn back can you see all the blood you spilled Can you see the people you stomped on and the bruises you left Can you see the hearts that you broke and the souls you destroyed Don't let yourself fall asleep for when your ears are unguarded In crawl the spiders of secrets and the worms of lies A knife to the heart a needle prick to the finger a wound to the soul |
Crimson Stained Skin
Pale canvases as we enter the world Lives lived scar, maim and stain the canvas Blades of betrayal cut into ivory Blood drips, slips and drip drops Pitter patter batter batter Taking swings at everything in reach Nails claw at the pale column Cut slit shred now am I dead? No I survive but I do not thrive Drip drip dripping slipping puddles of crimson Blurry vision breath stuttering now uneven Heartbeat slows it’s time to go There’s a light, down for the count No energy to fight the light goes out Crimson streaks stain pale cheeks Muscle, slack body weak Empty eyes once seeing lies Silence suffocates I did not win Trickles remain forever on crimson stained skin Transformation Forest
I am walking down a path winding and steep The sun rises in the east and sets in the west I’m surrounded by all manner of beasts The chills that cover every single inch of my body Increase at each noise uttered in the shadows I know not which voices my foes are Nor can I recognize the call of my friends I attempt to clear the haze clouding my eyes But this further blurs the already hidden things I duck under branches and leap over roots A thorn pricks my fingers and droplets protrude Each second seems to last for hours Terror is the only thing I fear now, that and solitude Three steps forward and two steps back I turn to the right and to the left and know I am lost Then without warning I am robbed of all my senses I cannot smell the smoke as it enters my lungs I cannot see the fire that engulfs the forest where I reside I cannot taste the dirt as I dive to the ground in fear I cannot touch the fading bark on the burnt trees And I cannot hear the screams that are coming from my own mouth Suddenly all I can see, taste, touch, and hear is bitterness Not bitterness the feeling but instead a sour suffocation How I got here I know not how but I must find out This has gone on for far too long and I can’t hide anymore So, I sit down on the now vacant forest floor leaning on a rock I search my brain for answers to this dilemma now before me It is no easy task to triumph over never-ending darkness But I refuse to be beaten down Somewhere in the haze is what seems to be inevitable death I am only one person and empowered doubt enters my mind I am a tiny speck of insignificance in an indifferent world What could I possibly do to fix anything in my life that’s wrong? I’m just me and though people tell me that being myself is good enough I do not believe them because that’s what they’re supposed to say That is it then I suppose my decision has been made In this forest I will stay, and I will help it rebuild itself For I would rather live in a world burnt down and transformed Than a world where nothing is what it seems, and evil overtakes good If you ever feel the way I have and need to run away for even a little while Come and visit me in my forest of transformation and hope Here is my invitation to you to come to this place of temporary escape You can find it anywhere and often it may even find you in your dreams It may find you in your laughter and in each tear that you cry It will never be too far away so don’t forget the transformation forest Never forget how it came to be by fire cleansed and by my hands transformed It Eludes Me
Lying in bed you’re wide awake Channel surfing in your mind Don’t know what to do now The power switch is broken The volume can only be turned up Tossing and turning, back and forth You’re hot then you’re cold then in between Turn off the lights and the tv too Shut your eyes and let the film commence Thoughts fill pages of the sleepless script You start to slip into a dream But then a blip flashes across your eyelids It disappears as quickly as it appeared A sinister feeling and you upright bolt Now you have to start all over again First, it’s a trip to the bathroom Tiptoe back across the room, climb back into bed Take a couple breaths both long and deep Where is a kill switch when you need it? Ok let’s try this once more and a couple more after that Counting isn’t working cause the pasture’s empty Now what can you possibly do The buzzing thought in each brain cell is deafening One, two, three, Do, Re, Mi, wait what Plucking petals left and right does he like me probably not I know there’s a solution if only my logical side dominated Closing your eyes again, now the colors are murky Tick, tick, tick, tick oh shut up clock Seriously it’s 1 am and no progress has been made Repeat, repeat, repeat, fail, fail, failed Time to try hypnosis, nope my nose itches Ugh this cannot go on I have work at 8 Every minute spent awake adds to my exhaustion Maybe some lullabies like Mozart or Bach Really classical music is a dud too No one can live like this I’m so tired Repeating narration of my every thought A dream and a nightmare free but in chains Sandman old friend where have you gone Sleep why have you abandoned your post Every evening when the sun goes down it’s time to fight I’m playing tug of war with my REM cycle I had no idea obtaining sweet serenity would cost so much Here I will lie night after night cause sleep is elusive Where fore art thou my much-needed slumber Death
A thief in the night It doesn’t care how young you are It may seem final but it’s not A shadow in the light It doesn’t care how old you are It’s a portal from this life to God Did You Know?
Did you know? Did you know that I loved you Did you know that I cared Did you you know my soul for you alone was bared Did you know I started bleeding from the heart Did you know it began the day you departed Did you know that I’m broken Did you know that I’m weak Did you know your affection is what I seek Did you know that I will never love another Did you know it’s true despite lack of reciprocation Did you know of the depth of my devotion Did you know that I still love you Did you know that I still care Did you know my soul forever for you will be bared Did you know? |
